Time is so small, compared to the bigger issues. The more things I don’t do, the less time I feel that I have used usefully. It’s my biggest struggle, time management.
I need to manage my time more wisely. I spend most of my free time, which is right after 4 PM on the internet. I search for things that don’t really matter and I waste my time away laughing or trying to find entertainment from Facebook, Twitter, and YouTube. I check all my daily things as needed, however, when 7-8:30 PM rolls around, I start wanting to do things creatively. I want to write, or draw, or do something that will help me later on in life. I sit and think about all these things for around an hour, then I start doing. The next thing I know, it’s 10 PM and I need to go to bed for work. On the weekends; Friday night and Saturday night, I stay up until early morning, around 2 AM. Sunday comes around and I don’t want to go to bed.
One of my goals when the new year hits, is to stop procrastinating. I have so many books I want to read and so many things I want to begin, but for me… for some odd reason, it feels better to start at the beginning. For example, starting a new workout or habit change on a Monday or the first of the month. It’s a fresh start. Wednesday the 5th would feel weird compared to the 1st of Friday. Or if I can’t wait for a month to pass, I would do Monday the 22nd. It’s either a Monday on any numbered date, or the first of the month on any weekday.
I need to cut down on my internet hours, it’s pretty stressing towards my overall goals, however, I want to internet to discover more amazing things! I am currently working on an idea for a short story or possible novel, and it requires a lot of research, and it’s hard! The internet is the nest of my procrastinating desires.
The creative ability in me also arrives pretty late in the day, I am a night owl at heart and I need to figure out how to further force myself to push those creative juices earlier in the evening. I am working on it pretty hard, so I can do it better before the New Year.
I need to make a schedule for myself, give me time limits on certain things, maybe that would help. A lot of my day is taken up by my full time job, sadly. Don’t get me wrong, I love it, but I wish I could get paid the same amount, but work less. It doesn’t work that way though. Eventually, I want to get to my dream job, whether it be a part time photographer, or a struggling writer, or a not very famous artist. I want to get somewhere in life with my hobbies that I love doing.
But, time is my problem and my problem will always be time.