School is over on Monday, then I have all summer. The rest of May, June, July, and part of August. I’m scared, is that bad? I’m a senior on Monday, May 21st, 2012, 2:40 PM. It’s scary. I know what I want to do after high school, but, how I achieve it? That’s different. Everything has changed so much, everything has… My friends have changed, my love life, ideas, fears. Everything has changed in someway, it doesn’t have to be a drastic change, it could just be something tiny; for example, my feelings for some people could slightly change.
What will I do this summer, I know that I am single but I don’t feel like I am. I know I still am in love with him, but he is moving! That is the scariest thing out there. I won’t see him this summer, or senior year. I have mixed feelings on that, they just haven’t effected me yet… How will I deal with that realization? I love him, and I know he loves me still, but I’m losing him. For good? I’m not quite sure yet… I don’t know what I will do with out being able to call him and ask him to wrap his arms around me. I don’t know how I will handle dealing with my lustful needs of my first loves touch when he won’t even be here. I have a long way to go before I can be in another relationship, that’s for sure!
On another note, I have a betta fish now. I haven’t named him, I don’t what to name him. It feels nice to own something, in a sense that you bought it with your own money that you worked hard to get!
I also bought some other stuff. V8 Fusion, Tea, Pants, Swimsuit, Cereal, Milk, Betta food, Webcam, flash drive, sd card, a book, food. Some other things.
I have to do a final now. Bye.