The thoughts that crowd my mind lately, are not friendly towards anything. I'm getting sick of some situations and I am getting impatient with others. I don't really know how to handle things either. I don't know how I am supposed to handle things. I am okay at work, unless situations that are very stressing… Continue reading Thoughts
Tattoos are a hard thing to describe for me, why I get them, what they mean. It all has to do with my not yet finished life story. When I was little, I lived in Wisconsin, and I-from what I can recall-was very happy and satisfied with life. Then I moved to Iowa and then… Continue reading Tattoos & Thoughts
This started out as a question to answer about needs and wants but it was twisted into a self exploration summary and something that re-kindled my emotions about things.
As I wrote, I confessed on Monday to a guy that I work with, and since I share my life and deep feelings with the people who happen to virtually walk by, here is my mixed up and emotional story. I am 18, he is 23. He is nice, cute, funny, somewhat shy and I… Continue reading All Open
I imagine myself looking at someone, and wanting to embrace them. I let my hands trace over and up his arms, my hands pressed against is back and I hold him. I feel his arms wrap around my back and hold me close. I feel my cheek against his, and I feel warm. I wish for… Continue reading Wishful Thinking and Feelings
My morning started off somber, I was thinking of the past and soon I was transported back in time as I mindlessly worked with the actions. I wasnt in present time, I was far from that. Back in two years thinking of him. Every now and then, I would focus back on reality, but I… Continue reading A Day Like Today
I feel whole when I am able to give my love, and receive the same kind of love.I've been feeling down since Saturday, and I've been neglecting myself. Today, well, a few minutes ago, I just did some yoga. I followed the video instruction of opening the hips, obtaining some upper body strength and overall stretching.… Continue reading Changing
I'm down in the slumps tonight. It's been building up. The stress of my family, not seeing the people who make me smile and laugh. It's just me, being left alone with my thoughts and memories. It's getting me upset. Crying doesn't help the depression, it makes it worse. ~I am lonely. I feel alone. I think I'm… Continue reading Slumps
Meow.For some odd reason, Charlie, my cat... is sitting in my lap. It is the strangest thing ever. I just thought I should share that... I think it is amazing though. He has never obediently stayed in my lap, or anywhere by me... I'm so proud!
So, yesterday, October 15, I slept at my friend Sam's house. It was awesome, her dog loves me now, and I am so glad. She used to bark at me all the time and growl and just be, well Onyx (that's her name). Then after that, we (Chris, her brother, Sam and I) all played Rock… Continue reading It was different, will it always be like this?