Obsessed

Imagine a world where everything feels as if you are in the best moment of your life. Imagine that the sky was so blue that you couldn’t help but flop down on a pillow of grass and a blanket of clovers. Your toes are tickled by the breeze and the sun soaks into your skin like lotion after a steamy shower. The birds sing beautiful melodies that move your heart and you feel connected to life. The clouds dance over the sky as the birds ride the winds. The trees sway to the music in your head, and the flowers look a little bit brighter than usual. Imagine you at the happiest moment in your life, it might have been yesterday. It just happens so casually; you are shopping at a store and the store clerk seems so happy to be alive. S/He transfers his love of life and work into you and you feel so boosted. All of a sudden, life seems great. It is very true that a smile can turn a persons life around. You should be obsessed with being happy, no one wants to be angry or sad. In order to be happy, you have to accept that not everything is going to just be good. Life is only hard and sad if you make it that way, and I know… It’s easier said than done, but that’s why a smile or a friendly visit helps even if its just a little bit.

Anyway, I have been obsessed with a particular song. It’s called “We Don’t have to take our clothes off” by Ella Eyre. I don’t know if its a cover or whatever but I love this song. It’s beautiful and romantic and she sings it perfectly. I’ve been listening to this song a lot and I am loving the way I can sing it. I found the songs I would love to sing. I highly recommend listening to the words and she expresses herself. It makes me feel like I should buy Adele’s album. I love Adele too. As a cute little update on my life…

Yesterday I had a cute visit with the Judge. I had court because of no registration & Insurance. I have both now. She is dropping the registration charge but I need to pay the other portion. Oh well, it’s my own fault. On top of that I was late to court and I was working too hard during the weeks before to actually get an attorney to try to drop all the fees. Oh well, next time I won’t have this problem. My boyfriend and I have been overindulging in watching the Naruto Shippuden on Hulu. I’ve seen most of them and have actually finished the series in Manga form, but I am re-watching them with him. I’ve been trying to get back into writing, NaNoWriMo didn’t help because of working two jobs. Both are intense pieces of work. They both have their ups and downs and it’s pretty rough working pretty much 50 some hours a week total. Give or take a day off or so. It’s going to be that way for a while now, but Friday… I get paid from both jobs, plus a bonus check. I’m excited. Too bad I will be broke once again since I have to pay my bills: Phone, credit card, health, car payment… Gas. Thats it for these next two weeks. Sometimes I hate being an adult. I wish I could just save my money and mooch off of my parents, but they aren’t very wealthy or abundant in money so I have to sorta fend for myself. I don’t exactly see it myself but my grandparents are proud of me, that makes me pretty happy. I wish I could afford to see them for the holidays, I might use my tax return for a trip up there, and I would so pay for my boyfriend to go with me. I’d be happy for him to come with me.

Another notable thing that has happened is the changing of our bedroom. We moved a lot of stuff around so now we have a lot of room on the floor so I am going to be getting back into yoga and probably reading. The babe and I our going to work out together for our new years resolution and hopefully by then I will figure out my money and job situation. Anyway, we are going to work out together and we are going to start eating healthier and actually start doing date nights since we don’t do much outside of our own home and we need to start doing that again. Going on walks or to the park or movies. It gets expensive but it will be nice. Maybe a movie once a month but every week we go to park and chat or walk or have a picnic or something of the sort. I’m sure he and I are going to go ice skating again. In the mall that I work at, every Tuesday is half off movie night. It’s super nice. I also want to get back into reading all of my books so I can decide what ones I should keep to re-read or which ones I should sell. I am just like my grandma when I don’t want to get rid of anything. I could use it someday. I don’t know when, but I might use it. It’s really sad that I say that about books…

“Oh, I’ll read this sometime!” I put the book in my cart as I past all the other ones on the shelf. I stop and think to myself about all the books I have and take a few steps back. I look at all my options and decided to throw three more in the same series in the cart.I told myself that I would start reading when I get home. Little did I actually realize that when I pull into the parking lot and step foot into my bedroom that I would put the books on my self and forget about them until I felt like reading again. Only then would I realize that I don’t need all of these books and then I sell them. The books will only collect dust, just like all of my other things. That’s why the only thing I should spend money on is food. I’ll definitely eat the ones that I like or don’t really have to cook(cereal, ice cream, cookies, etc).

I have some seriously bad habits, but hey! I got a boyfriend who can help me through the New Years Resolutions, so that’s a thing. My NYR’s are to work out, eat right, and save money all the while being healthy, happy, and totally not stressed out. It’s going to be hard but it’ll be okay. Keep in mind that this is the year I turn 21…

Am I adulting correctly?