Hello

Hello all, it has been quite a while since I have wrote anything worth saying. I haven’t had much inspiration lately, but I am feeling pretty decent right now. A lot has happened since I turned 20 this past Tuesday, I am still trying to take it all in, but for now I will start somewhere in the beginning.

I’d like the mention the me in the past, say high school… or even just a year ago, would have never expected to see myself where I am now, or go through what I have gone through. Last year April, I spent my tax return on a plane ticket to see my friend Sawyer for the first time. It was one of the best times in my life so far and I will never forget all the fun I had, people I finally met and got to meet, as well as the scenery that I had a chance to see. Sawyer has been my online friend for quite a while and I was super stoked that I actually got to meet him and it turned out great! When I got back home, I was still working at Palmers, didn’t see myself leaving or anything of the sort. I didn’t expect to get kicked out of my house in June and live with a good friend Sam, and then I definitely didn’t see myself getting kicked out of her place, but back then, I didn’t really understand money situations. Last year, I also got introduced into the rave scene. I am not a druggie or anything of the sort. Yes the rave scene is associated with those habits, but all the people that I have met through that scene are amazing people and they have shaped and added on to many of my beliefs today. I have learned a lot from those people that I met and still meet. Later on that year, I went to a music festival called Bushwak and thats when I really felt at home with all those people that I’ve met. I met people from all over Iowa and some even out of state. I hung out with everyone, laughed with everyone and danced and played games with everyone. Slip n Slides, climbing trees, hula hoops, fire dancing, gloving, poi lights, campfires, rainstorms, camping, hammocks, and all that jazz with a lot of people. Everyone was my friend there, it was wonderful and I’ve never experienced such joy after high school. During that time, I moved back in with my dad because I didn’t want to live with my mom again (after she kicked me out the first time). I also spent more money on a plane ticket to see my grandparents in Idaho for almost two weeks. It was absolutely the best time I’ve had as well. I missed them so much and I loved seeing how much my family members have grown. I love getting to know my cousins a bit more and meeting new people. It was a short trip but I enjoyed every minute of it. I experienced a lot of new things and took a lot of amazing photographs out there. When I got back I was a little sad though. Work was just the same but i talked non stop about my trip. I lived about 10 minutes away from work and then one day, I got really fed up with working there, all the stress and sickness I felt from being pushed so hard and stressed on made me unhappy to work there, so I quit. The next few days I got a job at Stuff Etc. Another Iowa only store. Amazing how I do that. It is my first time working in retail and I love it so far. I’ve been there since september. Around that time, I met my current boyfriend. I knew him in high school, we were kinda friends. He was and still is a very strange kid. We got along, I gave him my number because I wanted to get to know him again because we both changed a lot. We hung out and then one night I pretty much asked him to ask me out and so we started dating. It took a bit to understand each other and figure things out, but we got there or here I should say. It took me a while to realize that I can’t manipulate him to give me what I think I need out of everything. Sure I want things, but that is because I’ve grown up reading all these things that make relationships more than relationships. I’ve come to realize that relationships are not always about seeing each other non stop, or talking non stop, or receiving and giving gifts all the time. Every relationship is different and I have come to know that my relationship is different. It is a whole new level from when I dated before, and I at first was not okay about all that jazz that didn’t happen, but as time went, I realized that I want to be with him and therefore he is a gift in itself. I don’t need all sorts of presents from him, I just want him.  Besides the less money he spends on me, the better for what he needs to pay off. Right?

So far so good. The new year is right around the corner, and I had a great time with his family and I am sure he had equal amount with mine. Nothing quite so amazing happened in January or February. But in March, I decided to get a second job to take up my free time at home because I do nothing anyway, so why not get a second job. I started working at Teavana, and it is my first job in sales, and so far so awesome, haha. My boss says I am doing a great job and she’s working with me and teaching me a lot of things. I love it and I learned to love tea more than ever. I had my 20th birthday on the 21st of April and that was when things started moving faster. My boyfriend moved in, and so far so good-again. I really enjoy seeing his face every day and knowing that I will see him soon makes me happy. I like coming home and seeing his stuff slowly get comfortable in my room. Sadly it isn’t as big as his, but it’s alright. We are planning on building a loft bed to make more room. We already sound proofed a wall. We got a few summer projects to do. And here I am today. Writing this and soon to be straightening up the room. I am going to make a list of Summer to do things. Next week is a big week for me though.

I work at Stuff Tuesday through Friday, 8:30 am to 4 pm. Then on Saturday I work 2 pm to 8:30 pm. At Teavana, I work Tuesday though Thursday, 5 pm to 9:30 pm. Friday night I have off, then Saturday I work 10 am to 1 pm. Sunday I work 1 pm to 7 pm or 3 pm to 7 pm. It’s going to be a rewarding and exhausting week and I don’t know If it will stay that busy.

Thankfully Mondays are off for me. So I get to relax a bit, and its a good thing that the two places have two different atmospheres or else I wouldn’t be able to do it, I think.

Well, I spills whats been happening recently and now I have to work bit here then, actually go to work. I will keep you all updated again. I just need to get out of the rut with my writing, and I will once things get semi organized around here. It is still a little hectic.