I have a lot of things I want to do with my life, and right now, I am finally starting to see them happen. I see my goals down in front of my and then I see a very blurry path. Granted, it is blurry and I can’t really tell where it is or how it will be, but it is 100% better than not being able to see it at all.
Everyday, the blur lessens. That makes me feel slightly happier with how things are going. I feel like I am getting better at handling some situations, and that makes me feel confident and happier.
I did something today that I haven’t done in a bit. I drew something seriously. I drew a bit more, but I tore out the pages because I feel like I wasn’t trying hard enough. Then I got an idea to draw something, so I did. I didn’t draw the exact idea, but it was pretty close and I am pretty satisfied about it. I drew a wolf. Half of a wolf face. i wanted to draw a wolf as the main focus and then a evergreen in the background. The paper is 4 x 6″, so it is fairly small. I’m not used to an enclosed drawing space for legitimate hard work, I am pretty proud of myself.
I’m getting things figured out, and I am going to try and focus on a better lifestyle. Sadly, the winter weather sucks, but I have to deal, and I will. Slowly. I’m debating on what to do with my taxes. I am thinking about buying a camera lens, or a shutter remote or a flash extension or something for my camera. A new camera bag, or something. Or I might save it for later and use it to traveling expenses and dinner dates with my boyfriend.
By the way, can I say that my boyfriend is absolutely amazing. He told me that he feels good when he is with me, and I think it applies to anything that we do. I’m pretty sure I also get him out of the house and get him to do different things, and the same thing applies to myself. My favorite thing about us, is our conversations. Its different and, what I feel with him is absolutely amazing and 100% percent different from other dating experiences. I just want him to know that he is absolutely amazing. Though, I do tell him anyway.
I’m still stuck on what I want to do for my moving situation. I have to help my mom and my dad move. I don’t want to. Unless I get paid for it… Doubt it, I will still have too. Here’s a little pro-con list of moving
- Closer to the gym
- Closer to gas stations, and stores
- Closer to work
- Closer to my boyfriend
- Everyone I hang out with is in the vicinity
- House is finished
- Relatives moving with us (I’m uncomfortable)
- I’d like to be with my mom
- Renovating will be hard
- Always had problems with the trailer
Overall, the pros definitely out number the cons. Sadly, half of the cons deal with an emotional side that is hard to overcome. I don’t know how it will affect me mentally and I don’t want it to be negative. I’m perfectly find with it being neutral and not changing anything at all. It’s obvious which one I should choose, it is just hard for some reason.