The thoughts that crowd my mind lately, are not friendly towards anything. I’m getting sick of some situations and I am getting impatient with others. I don’t really know how to handle things either. I don’t know how I am supposed to handle things. I am okay at work, unless situations that are very stressing hang over my head.
Currently, I feel the need to run away and disappear. Out of sight, out of mind. I want to be forgotten for a bit. I want to be in silence, I want to be still. I want time to stop moving for an hour, I want to have my ‘me time’ to figure everything out. I won’t get it, but I wish for it.
I have no motivation to do much since my car has been out of order. I don’t go to the gym, I don’t read much anymore, I can’t run away from distasteful situations at home. I feel like I am unable to do anything. It’s very depressing.
I feel that sense of peace and time freezing with my boyfriend though, I feel like things will be alright and I feel like I can get everything together. I just have no one really, in person, to discuss any of this stuff and he is here, and so are others, but it isn’t the same as him.