I saw the devil last night, saw him in my dreams, he was a beautiful as I remembered him to be and he didn’t change at all. The winter may have hit him a bit, but nothing too drastic. The devil seemed so real when I dreamed about him; his face, eyes, nose, lips, hair, skin. It all seemed so real, so real that I forgot that I was dreaming and I slept next to him that night. I woke up in a bit of a rush, the sound of my alarm jerked me awake from my awkward slumber next to the devil himself. I felt a kink forming in my neck and my back was already hurting and as I rolled over, I saw him. It turned out that it wasn’t a dream. He was real and I remember that I snapped proof of his existence in my presence. He was gone from my life once and now I have proof of him there, and hopefully he won’t disappear again. In case no body figured it out, right after I finished the post yesterday,here, the devil ex boyfriend himself messaged me and got back into contact with me. I nearly had a heart attack and I was happy and sad and terrified to get answers.
I got a few and it appeared to be both of our faults, I won’t get into it because I don’t want to discuss it again, it was just something stupid yet not so stupid. He apologized and I cried, a lot. He kept apologizing and I said I’m sorry a few times too. I was a wreck, I thought I would never see him again and everything just happened to be turning around. I’m going to see him again. I asked him what he wants from me and he is unsure, and so I told him to think about it. I will give him a second chance, because I believe in them. This time, he might actually listen to me when I say he needs to tell me when I do something that he doesn’t like.
I have realized that I love flowers. I have flower pants, a flower purse, a few flower notebooks, a flower scarf and even a flower tattoo. I just discovered this, and I feel like it is incredible. Lord knows that I love cats like crazy and now I love flowers just as much, I mean, there even pink flowers. I am changing everyday and I am seeing it and I love it.
I am feeling better after working today as well, I just love people and I saw quite a few regulars that made me pretty happy and that is always good.
Writing a Paige 