Eighteen Thousand

I just logged into a computer with Rent-A-Center and I found out that I have 18,000 views. That’s super exciting! I have a goal to get 20,000 views before the end of the year. I have been bored all day, hanging out here in town for hours. I played a lot of games and talked a lot. I got a lot of pictures and I’ve seen a lot of people that I see at work. I think it is kind of awesome. My work is closed at 5 PM today, so I want to go there before I leave for home. I want to buy some stuff, but I get paid on Friday so I can totally pay off stuff then.

I am trying to be happier, in a better mood. I just need to stay out of the house and do things. I need to bring my workbook with me wherever I go so I can spend time working on it anywhere, for example, right now. I could be writing and working on my book and get things done rather than playing games and being lazy.

Have you ever found it easier to work in the bright light rather than working in the darker lights that are more ambient? I can’t really work in darker lights because I get tired and I feel like I can’t read things clearly like I can in brighter light settings like in high school.

I do miss school, I had a lot of time to do things that didn’t matter even though I should’ve been doing homework. I feel like I am out of place and doing nothing but honestly, I am trying to accomplish a lot of thins without having to go to school. I don’t have the money for it and I don’t feel ready to go back to school. I just wish I could take a month break from everything. I want to save up so much money and go on a year trip around the world. Its going to take a lot of money but I really want to do it. I so want to, I yearn for it hardcore. Its so painful how bad I want to travel around. I want to go alone and be off in the world on my own and I kind of want to barely make it around the world. I want to experience everything I can in a short amount of time and I want to have the best time of my life.

I want to feel like I am living a life worth living.