(Deviant art, late night journal update)
I work full time and I am attempting to save money so I can get my own apartment. I feel like I am halfway over with my life and I am so disappointed at where I am at right now. I know I have a lot more time with me, but I want to be better and I am so impatient. I want to be a writer, have my books on the market, paperback or kindle version, whatever. I want to draw and doodle and get paid for it. I want to come up with awesome ideas for people’s tattoos, and I want to sell my drawings! I want to own a bakery, I want to help my grandfathers dream come true. I want to do this, I want to do that. I feel like I have no time, because I want to do so many other things as well. I have so many manga that I want to read and be into, but I don’t have time. Plus they don’t update all the time. I want to get back into my meditation and my yoga! I want to catch up on all my you-tube videos. I need to make a schedule for myself so I can handle things better! This sucks. I wish I could just start new and fresh, have a clean slate, like when I move into an apartment. That’s my idea. Or a Monday, or the beginning of the month or year. I need a day to start so I can get things set. I can’t start like say Sunday or a Wednesday, my week would be off and things wouldn’t correspond in some way. I don’t know.