My Confessions

Hey, people who may still read all my stuff. I really like answering questions, so I decided that I will take an A-Z list of random questions and answer them on here. No one has to ask me, I will answer them all. I like answering questions and finding out more about myself, it’s pretty fun to me! 

A – If I’m in love.

I don’t think I am in love. I feel like I miss someone, and I did love him, and I still kind of do. I think, if you ever love someone, you can never stop loving them, you just develop different feelings of love. There are the feelings like ‘I love you and I want you’ a.k.a. lust. There are the feelings like ‘I love you and I want you to be mine.’ I think that is how I describe infatuation, there isn’t really any reason behind it and it could also be love at first sight, which can fade fast unless you get the feelings like ‘I’ve talked to you, and heard from you… I love you.’ Something around there sounds like the person has gotten to know the one they are in love with and they feel that they seriously do love them. That’s my loves end up. I can love a lot, given time and patience, and of course the interest that never fades.

B – Who the last person I talked to on the phone was.

I called my grandmother, I got a new phone number due to a guy who was harassing me on I-pod numbers and text free apps with different number. That guy can not comprehend, “please stop,” but that is another story for another day.

C – How long it’s been since I’ve kissed.

It’s been a while. The last person that I’ve kissed, I didn’t have feelings for, I wanted to see what it would feel like if I didn’t have feelings for them, and I felt nothing. It’s sad and I didn’t like it. I like when I can kiss someone that I love or have feelings for. If I don’t it feels like nothing and unpleasant. 

D – If I have a preference for boys or girls.

My preference is guys, but I do have the tendency to do some things with girls. Or a girl, who happens to be my best friend. That’s what happens. I’m a big tease and it’s fun to mess around. But! It’s nothing perverted or anything that goes farther than first base.

E – How many holes I have in my ears.

I only have the one that I got when I was really young, and I don’t even wear earrings.

F – Give me any options, like ‘hot or cold?’

Well, if it’s hot, I like hot chocolate and hot baths and showers. If it’s cold, I like cold drinking water, ice cream and sometimes the refreshing splash of cold water to wake my senses.

G – The last person I said ‘I love you’ to.

I think that was my best friend. I’m pretty sure it was my best friend, Holiday. I always tell her I love her, she is my best friend and I’d be a total ghost if I never knew her. I wouldn’t get out of the house or anything if it weren’t for her.

H – The last person I hugged.

The last person I hugged, I believe, was also Holiday. I don’t really hug my parents because we aren’t really the touchy-feel type. Sometimes I wish we were, but it’s never gonna happen I bet. Well, things happen unexpectedly, so it might happen.

I – The last time I felt jealous, and why.

Um, at work. I’m kind of an outcast there, but I can also be pretty social and outgoing. I’m still not used to some of the people, but it doesn’t really matter since they left anyway. I see how they all act and I wish they could act that way with me too. That’s about it for my jealous feelings.

J – How old I am.

I am 18. 

K– What my full name is.

My full name is Paige Lynn Powell.

L – If I have siblings.

I have an older brother named Sean. He will be 21 in July.

M – If I forgive betrayal.

What kind of betrayal, one time a friend betrayed my trust, and so I still don’t forgive her because she isn’t sorry about it at all. I don’t like when people lie to me. And I don’t think I have been betrayed any other way.

N – If you want to know how I treat my friends.

I treat my friends like they are queens or kings, if they are super close and important to me. I almost always end up monopolizing or try to. My regular friends I treat as friends that I talk to and occasionally/rarely hang out. If they are so called friends that only need me at a certain time, then I don’t really treat them as friends, they are people. Even if they were my friend at some point. If they don’t care then I shouldn’t either.

O – If I like my school.

I did. A lot of drama, but I grew up with that school.

P – What kind of music I like.

I like any kind of music and listen to any kind. It all depends on my mood, ya know?

Q – What the last party I went to was, and when the next will be.

The last party I went to was so long ago, I think it was the workplace’s Christmas party in January. The next party will be over the summer, at my house.

S – 2 habits.

Picking my nails, and scratching my head, when I am nervous or don’t know what to do.

T– 5 things I love unconditionally.

1.Holiday.
2. My job/working.
3.Life
4.My hobbies
5.My ideas

U – How many texts I send daily.

I barely text, so probably at the most 15, not even that.

V – 3 big dreams.

1. Become a writer and live off of writing books, while living in my own house in the mountains or somewhere warm, with a beautiful shower and bedroom. All by myself with perfect mornings and perfect times where I can be myself and workout how I want. With all the space I need, especially so I can walk around naked or something like that.

2. Become the person I want to become and live my dreams and inspire others. Own a beautiful place and discover the world little by little.

3. Have a husband and children, raised in the country. Teach them all about life and how to protect oneself, but also how to let the defenses go sometimes, saying it’s okay to get hurt, but just know how to get back up again and remember I will always be here for you. Something like that.

W – An idol.

I don’t really have an idol. I think all my idols would be all the women and men who don’t give up on trying to improve themselves for themselves. Day in and Day out, they are working hard to become better than they were yesterday, and that is what I strive to do.

X – If I’ve done something I regret very much.

I have, and I don’t want to tell. It’s painful for me to share. Maybe someday.

Y – If I like my town and why.

I do because I grew up here(a little bit, from age 9 to 18). I love my job here too. But I want to move to somewhere beautiful. Where I can run on trails and see the ocean through the woods or see the clearest lakes below the peaks on mountains. It’d be amazing. I want to move somewhere, where I have privacy and it’s all because of the trees around me. 

Z – Ask any question you want.

Why don’t you answer one of these and let me get to know you, or let your followers get to know you. Something, because I want to learn everything because it’s all interesting.