Well, I think I am off today. I am going to lie here, get little to no sleep. Dream about days where there was fun and love in my life. Days where I didn’t feel completely empty and in need of some pain. I am going to lie here because I can’t do anything to hurt myself, but I can cry. I can cry and I can die a little inside, like I do everyday. 

I am going to go now, and dream of a happier place and hope to fall asleep and forget all my pain and troubles when I wake up. I want to forget it all. I don’t want to go to school. I don’t want to work. I want to forget and waste away my days.