Pain

I felt like I was over my ex, but it seems like I’m not. I haven’t made direct eye contact with him really, and today I unintentionally did. I lost my breath. A while back I cried a lot. I’ve been sad lately and I just feel like I will be alone for a while. Who wants to date me with all this shit going in my life. Almost every guy wants a happy independent woman. I’m not always that happy and I’m trying to be independent. It’s hard and I feel like its just myself in this situation. I feel like no one wants me.