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Hey, everyone. If anyone still reads. I’ve been absent for a while now. I am sorry. I have been coming and going from places that I have been too a lot. By places, I mean websites. It’s 12:47 AM right now, I finished watching a Korean movie. It was pretty good. 

My 18th birthday is this Sunday. I am going to hang out with this guy, DJ. He asked me to prom. It’ll be fun, I’m pretty excited. I am going to be up at 7 in the morning on the 20th, I will go home and not sleep, then I will probably stay up until 5 or so in the morning. If I make an appointment for the tattoo place, then I will get one that day. I’ve really wanted a tattoo on my 18th birthday. I want it to be something really meaning full, I know some tattoo’s can be really general and widely spread, but it’s okay. The tattoo I want will have my own words and something else. I want it to be something like wings, I will draw them. I want the wings to represent myself learning to fly over the mountains I come across. I think some of the feathers my fall off too because of all the things that I have lost and all of the things that hurt me. I might add some other designs that could represent my life. The words must be something inspirational, so when I see them I get inspired, or when someone else see’s them, they leave with thoughts running through their mind.

I have a lot of homework that I need to do. I’m going to bed soon because I need to get up earlier and do what I have to do. However, I have horrible focusing skills, I’ll try harder. I’ve been working out a lot more lately, I have improved on my fitness testing! I injured my right shoulder somehow. I haven’t gotten it checked out, because it’s not a horrible pain. It’s really sore, and that’s about it. I really like yoga, I have been doing it a lot lately, not the same practice everyday, but close enough. It makes me feel amazing, and when I am breathing, I think of nothing else but the feel of my breath, my muscles working, and my focus.

I have been playing Bio-shock Infinite. It’s pretty amazing! I can’t beat it yet though, I suck at the game, I suck at all gaming, but I love it. I focus more as well. It’s like another life within my life. I found more YouTube accounts that I love. Gamer’s and stuff. I even sent my first letter to one of them! I was so excited! It was the happiest day of my life. 

I have so many things that make me happy. My workouts, my few good friends, the YouTube accounts, the shows. I am healing. I am healing, from all the thoughts of needing someone else. I am pleased with myself so far, who I am turning into. It’s nice, it’s refreshing. I’m trying, and I want to change. I’m done giving my all to everyone who obviously don’t do the same for me. I am going to find myself, and learn about myself and who I am, only then can I find someone who can love like I do. 

I feel like I didn’t catch up on anything at all. I do have to go to bed though, I need to wake up at a normal time so I can do somethings. 

Thank you, who ever read this much, for reading. It’s nice to know that someone will read this, even if they don’t care. Goodnight.