Reasons

Many people are telling me things like, “That’s dumb,” “What a stupid reason.” Stuff like that. Those are the reply’s I get when I explain why my ex-boyfriend and I are no longer together. 

My mother, and my managers and some elders tell me that I am being mature about it. 

I don’t really know. I know that I want to cry, but I don’t want to. I feel drained and exhausted, but I made it through the day. Everyone was acting caring to me, and it was a bit new and I was confused. Work helped me a lot, though I felt really exhausted, I was able to get the job done and work hard. 

I don’t know if I am okay or not. I am kind of blocking it right now. I don’t want to think about it, so I won’t. I screamed and cried last night and I cried this morning, but I am done now. I feel like, I blocked my heart from too much pain when my first love ended. I feel like, relationships in high school won’t last. Too many things are going on, so why fret over it. Sure, I will let my mind slip to those days, but I don’t want to be like I was. 

Life goes on. Just gotta sink or swim I guess.