Dear Boyfriend

Bryce,

All my thoughts are occupied by one thing only, you. Your scent, touch, warmth, and kiss are all still fresh on my mind. I can handle not hearing your voice, seeing you, feeling you, holding you. It’s only for a little while anyway. The time we spend apart is made up with the time we spend together. You have grown so close to me in such a short amount of time, and you have become one of the dearest people to me. You are so dear to me, I bet you can’t even imagine it. It’s hard to express my feelings-sometimes I feel like they are awkward and other times I feel like the actions are stupid. Most of the time, I feel to stubborn to admit anything, I hope you understand that. I am trying to be more open and recently-I have succeeded. A part of me wishes that I could have given you everything that was mine(my first kiss, touch, etc) but I know that won’t happen. Another part of me knows that what happened before I met you, made me who I am and that made me meet you. I am glad that I experienced everything I have up until I now. I know what the meaning of a relationship is, I know to take in consideration of the other person’s feelings. I know the meaning of “communication is key”. I don’t regret all the things I have done. It made me who I am now, and I’ve had my heart broken, and I have broken hearts. I know it is a part of life and I know it happens. I know you aren’t my first love, and I know Nick is. However, somewhere in my mind… I am losing the feelings I had with my first love and you are just piling in my mind and heart. I feel like this is my first love all over again, but this time around I have more knowledge and I know what kind of situation I am getting into. I know there were times when all I would think about would be Nick, he made me more upset than glad. I don’t know why it had to be like that, but it happened. I feel more at ease that I am thinking less of him and more of you, and I know you like that a lot. Slowly, the thoughts of him are leaving, each day the thoughts disappear faster. I know I don’t say this a lot, but some words are special to me, so things I don’t say out loud. You, Bryce, are amazing. You are an amazing person. You are kind, strong, gentle, and sweet. You know what you want to say and you say it. I know you want to hold your tongue on somethings but I don’t let you. I want to know everything that is getting to you and we can work it out. Even if it is about me. (I know I have bad manners-I’m working on it.) I honestly will do anything for you, as long as you are standing right beside me on the way.

Your love,

Paige