Forever

I wait
For you.
For those
kisses, hugs, laughs, smiles. 

I want your arms
To curl around my body.
Wrap me up.
I want you, I love you, I miss you. 

It’s time though,
I need to say my farewell.
I do not love in that way anymore,
No longer together, your leaving, I finally accepted it. 

I still love you, forever…

Please,
Be happy, smile, love, care, laugh, enjoy. 
Try not to,
Cry, remember, ache. 
For me. 

I’m going to try…
To be happy, to love, to smile…
Even without you, my love.

“Will you still love me?” I ask.
“I’ll always love you.” You kiss my hair.

Tears will fall,
Smiles will break.
I’ll love you forever.
Forever.

~

Dedicated to my first love:

Dearest Nick, 
My heart will beat for you,
for a lifetime.
I don’t want you to leave, but it has to be done. 
I’ll always remember those things we shared, even if it is painful. You were my first, always will be. 
Thank you, Nick, for exposing light into my world. Thank you for exposing me to the happiness and painfulness of love. I love you for it. 
I’m always here for you, you are my close and dear friend now. Even though we were intimate. My broken heart has been taped together, even though I have some pieces missing. I love you, but I can’t say it enough. It’s not in the way of ‘be mine forever’ it’s more like… ‘I care for you, be safe, i want you by my side sometimes but not all the time.’ I love you, I care for you. Thank you, Nick. Thank you. 
Never forget me, please. Everything that happened between us was special. Everything. I’m sorry things ended like they did, but we accept it now. 
I love you.
Paige.