Monthly Archives: September 2011

中文

你好。我姓龙。我叫龙美珍。我的英文名字是Paige Powell。我的中文名字是龙美珍。你呢?请问您贵姓?你叫什么名字?他呢?他是谁?他是你的同学?他叫李文中。
我是学生,我不是龙美珍。他也是学生,他也不是老师。
我爱柏生。柏生的英文名字是Nick。他的中文名字是柏生。柏生是我的同学。他是美国人。我也是美国人。 他是说英文,我也是英文。
你好吗?我是很好。我说一点儿中文。 我会说很好英文。

That was my Chinese fest. I will write more and more in Chinese everyday, I love this language. ^_^ it makes me happy. I am also notifying that my relationship is good. I am together again with my boyfriend. I will follow him and accept what he chooses to do for his life. We may not agree on everything but, that is alright. We don’t have to agree on all things we talk about.  My cat, Baby, is doing very well. I am so proud of her, she hasn’t torn her stitched open yet and tomorrow is the third day of non-strenuous activity. ^_^ I hope she gets back to her playful self. Anyway, as to question of what I wrote above, here is the translation.


Hello. My family name is Long. I am Long Mei Zhen. My English name is Paige Powell. My Chinese name is Long Mei Zhen. How about you? May I ask your honorable last name? What is your name? How about him? Is he your classmate? He is Li Wenzhong.
I am a student, I am not a teacher. He is also a student, he is also not a teacher.
I love Bai Sheng. Bai Sheng’s English name is Nick. His Chinese name is Bai Sheng. Bai Sheng is my classmate. He is American. I am also American. He speaks English, I also speak English.
How are you? I am very good. I speak a little Chinese. I can speak very good English.

Lost Loves Never Were So Lost as You Thought.

Well, true story I guess. I lost a deep loved one, or so I thought…

My ex now knows all of the dirty (not really sexual in any way) deeds I have committed, they are not really meant for a happy blog like mine, so I shall not share. Anyway, I have been a bit, okay that is a lie, I have been really down and depressed and stuck in a rut these past weeks. When I broke up with my boyfriend, it didn’t click with me right away, later on, when I realized how much I missed him, it clicked. Oh boy did it click. I stopped eating a lot and started up on bad habits. My stomach hurts so much right now because of the food shortage. Ugh. He was upset on all of the things he found out about… I was upset too, but me being me, I hid behind a mask with no emotions, apart from my eyes which held back tears.

We talked the whole time and spent time talking with each other. We never really did that. It was a new change, nice for once. I liked it. Talking with him made me uber happy. So the good news is; after some time to myself and trying get the point out that I will not cheat, lie or hurt anyone, out and about, me and my ex will get back together and start a new relationship.

I am happy to get to be with my most beloved, and possibly the only person who will accept all of me, I am happy to be with him once more. Yet, I am also a tad bit sad that my fun times being a tease and humongous flirt is over. That is me after all. It’s not all gone, I just have to tone it down a bit, but that is fine. Hehe.

I hope all of the people with relationship issue get it all solved out. It will all work out in the end, and if it doesn’t then it’s not the end. Keep working hard!!!

Electricity

For this weekend I had no electricity. It was so cold and dark. Everywhere I went(at night) I had to bring my candle. >.< I don’t like the dark that much so it was a bit odd. Oh well. On Saturday I hung out with my friends, it was so awesome! I loved it. Haha! I went to this frozen yogurt place and this import place, I loved it. I had so much fun, I need to do it again sometime, knowing the mood I have been in lately.

The weather was kind of crappy but it was alright, I still don’t have a camera to take pictures. My dad is home all week. I’m so happy. In a couple of weeks I am getting a new camera, I can’t wait!

Baby, my kitten is getting fixed and getting her shots, so Charlie has to stay in my room all night tonight… Hehehe.

Classes

I have been skipping my classes again. Haha. It’s fun but I shouldn’t do it anymore. It’s not good for my record. I am in the library right now, listening to Tom’s Diner by Susanne Vega. I love this song. I have been so stressed out lately, I can not wait for the weekend, I need a break, just by myself and at home.

I have been so upset and I have been getting hot flashes easily, it hurts in a way. I was really depressed earlier today, just thinking about the past and things that I can’t do. It really makes me mad that I can’t really change anything about myself, willingly. I want to but it is hard.

I am in pain, my T.O.M. is coming up, and I don’t like him. It hurts and I can’t do much. It hurts to walk at times too. I need to take meds. I need to learn more songs on the piano and catch up in my classes, it could be bad.

Rainy day, busy weekend.

I’m sorry I haven’t updated for a while, nothing really big happened. This is what happened this week:

1. I went to Milwaukee. My father had to go there to get his Wisconsin license, I forgot why. I left on Thursday, around 2-3pm. So I ended up leaving school. We went home and I got crap for the trip, and we left in a rental car-A Nissan 2012. It was weird in a good way. Anyway, on the way there I decided to make some bracelets. I just learned this and before the trip I made two. On the trip I made a larger one, six different colors, six different strings. I really like making them. We stopped at Wal-Mart and I got a soda and some kit-kats I ate them all. No one wanted any. We bought a speed-o-meter or whatever, so we could speed to get there quickly. It was fun. I listened to my iPod most of the way. My phone was dying too, so I used my laptop to charge it. Then we arrived after 5 hours and before we got to our hotel we stopped at two places. The first place we stopped at my family’s’ friend, Robin, house. It was nice, we talked and got updated. Then we (my father and I) left my mom and brother there to talk and stuff. Father and I left for our old house. But before that we went to see my father’s friend, Trish. They were best friends and she is a nurse. She is really nice and a little on the chubby side but that isn’t bad. I like her. I got to see the lake and I got to see my first cat Dexter, he is so cute and cuddly. I miss him so much. I took a lot of pictures of him. My aunt and father talked and shared information. I just sat with Dexter. Then we had to leave, we went through town and we picked up Mom and brother, and said goodbye to Robin. Then we headed over to this other place, Dean and whats-her-name, that was a strange experience. They we welcoming and I didn’t remember them, I remember the names, but I couldn’t put it to faces. It was weird, and out of my usual comfort zone, but I liked it. Haha. I wouldn’t mind visiting them again. After that we left and went to our hotel that sucked. I shared a bet with my mom, and she snores so loud! Haha! Then  we got up and dad left to get his license. Oh and before we got to the hotel, we ate at Griddlers Cafe, and it used to be a place called George Webs, the best place ever. They got sold out, my dad also has a really by tooth so he had to go to the emergency room. My mom did 60 in a 35 construction zone, she got left off by the sheriff, she was lucky. Very lucky. Okay, back to the hotel in the morning. Dad left, I sat around doing nothing, then dad came back and mom and Sean left. Then they came back, we all went to Dunkin’ Doughnuts and got doughnuts and some breakfast, then we were on our way home. We stopped at a Wal-mart and got gas and continued. On the way home I was so worried because I was afraid that I would not make it home on time to hang out with my friend. And I ended up not making it home on time. But on the way home, I made another bracelet. A braided one, Halloween colors. It’s pretty. (^_^)

2. When I got home, I got dropped off at the Library, and looked for my friend, but he wasn’t there. (Sadface) so I ended up walking by his house, I was so desperate to see him. Haha. He makes me happy, as I have sad to many people. So I ended up waiting and walking, then I called my name twin, Paige C. And I asked what she was doing and I asked if I could spend the night, so I ended up doing that. They were heading over to the hospital and I tagged along, it was sad, but it was alright. It was fun there too. Then we got home and I watched an awesome movie: Thor. It was awesome, so cool, and the guy was hot. Hah! After that we went to bed, but instead I talked about guys and so did she. Haha. It was fun. Then we fell asleep. The next day we hung around for a bit, then we talked and then went to a birthday party, and I was so sad. I wanted to go jump on trampolines and all!! I was sad. I had a chance too but they denied. It was so sad. I ended up crying. (Sadface). After that we went to the hospital and hung around again and then her cousin Jonah came, and I had even more fun. Paiges brother was so~ annoying though. Hahaha! Then we went out to the hospitals park. Then we left after more fun. On the way home I called my momma and she said it was up to me to come home or not, and I didn’t. So I slept over again, and then in the morning I took a shower and I got all clean!!! Then had some toast and did my makeup. I packed up all my stuff and we went to church, even though I am atheist. The kids annoyed me in daycare. We went to service and I didn’t pay attention, I am atheist. I appreciate the religion, I just don’t practice it. Then, after all that stuff we went home and relaxed for a bit, and then they took me home and then stuff happened.

3. Here I am now. I got a new phone, and I am texting. I need to clean my room and I need to get to sleep around 11pm. I have not much to do.

That is my update, enjoy!! (^_^)

So many…

There are so many things
that get to me.
It feels like I can’t grab my wings
and flee.

Life is hurting,
Lost loves are painful.
I can’t help my flirting.
Even though it can be baneful.

Don’t tell me what to do.
I already have so many worries.
You should just find someone new
So I can finish your stories.

We are no more,
you and I.
We lasted then were torn
because of some lie.

I found a light
at the end of my dark mind.
I think i can put up this fight
and leave the pain behind.

I hope you find something.
something to hold on to.
Something dear and better.
Something that is not me…



 

Relationship

Well, sad thing to say is I left my long-term relationship with my boyfriend. It was around 8-9 months. I was sad for around two weeks, it was upsetting and things just didn’t go how we planned. My feelings for him have faded and overall, my heart wasn’t there. Then I found out that my friend has a girlfriend, I am happy for him. This other friend has a girlfriend who is pregnant wow. I don’t really mind at all, it must suck, oh well. I won’t change how I am. Since I broke up with my boyfriend, I feel sad for him. I know he is breaking and i feel so guilty and I don’t want to go back to him because of guilt. That is not how I will work. (>///<) I don’t know what to do I guess. I feel guilty, I just need to get back out there and have fun. (^_^) I will try.

On the up side, today I rode my bike to school, it was cold so I ended up wearing skinny jeans and a tight shirt. It was nice, Haha. I also got to get out of P.E. because of my status with problems, I don’t really know how that works, but I was super happy. I need to hang out with more people. After school I rode my bike to the library.

I have been reading lately, just not the book I needed to read. hah. I’m hungry.

Love is a precious thing,
it comes and goes as it pleases.
But those feelings often sting,
and what follows are also cold breezes.

Feelings are often forgotten
but some stay and linger.
Those which turn rotten,
grow old and sometimes wither.

We must not stick to the past,
we must look forward to the future.
All those feelings can be bypassed.
Then the future can be suture.

Sleepover

The sleepover was awesome. Just awesome.

I got to her house, I was introduced and then we went down stairs, we started out talking and being weird and then dancing and ambient leg dances. Haha. We talked about her Native blood and my sucky heritage. We talked about things that she see’s and that paranoid me! Haha! She gave me a bunch of cute ass clothing that I love! I’m wearing some right now!! It makes me happy!! Um. I drew in her sketch book and we talked and shared our story ideas, I think today, I am going to write after I finish my homework! (>_<) We went to bed but I couldn’t sleep until like 3 am. I was scared and paranoid and the weeping willow out back freaked me out. I kept asking if she was up. It was funny. When we woke up we ate breakfast and walked around saylorville and talked about photo shoots and what her dad likes and what we like. Then, We found some bones. Raccoon bones, I made mine into a bracelet(the spine) and hers is a necklace. Mine has feathers on it too! I love it. It looks pretty. Haha. Then we got back at her house and we got a bunch of clothing and makeup and accessories and went to go out on a photo shoot, it was so much fun, we got wet (I dropped my camera into the water and all my data is lost!!!) and laughed and got naked in the cars to change. (>///<) We got hit on by old creeps!!! We were by the gorge and a park ranger came up to us like “Ladies, you’re not supposed to be down there…” And he talked with us. My friend is all like “thank god were cute girls or we would be so busted!” Haha. It was funny. After that we left to get food at McDonald’s and she dropped me off. It was a wonderful time. I’m a bit bored so here is my outro poem:

Warm suns and gentle skies,
Light the day that will soon pass by.

This land we hold,
is the land we seek.
We mold this world until we grow old,
We create our own for we are all unique.

When you cradle this land,
that you can not call your own.
Be gentle and grand,
For the flowers that are outgrown

have unfurled in your hands
to reach out towards the skies.
That’s why we shall cradle these lands,
To protect them from lies.

It was inspired by my Native American friend who I spent the night with. I really like this and I hope she will too. (^_^)

 

Afternoon Skies(Update)

I’m laying on a bench; watching the blue sky stand still, feeling the breeze whisper through my hair, the sun warms up my skin.
There are no clouds to make the sky move.
As the sun sets the sky becomes a deeper color, setting a romantic mood.
It’s the end of another wonderful day!
Everything and everyone is returning to their homes to get rest and prepare for the sunrise,
the beginning of a new day will soon arrive!

Well, today was wonderful. I am soon going to spend the night with my friend Kasi!! It has been so long since a sleepover! I miss it. (>///<) I hung out with a couple of people I normally never hang out with and it was fun but somewhat annoying, they were picking on other people, they don’t need to do that. I could tell why they did it too. There is 1. A lot of people and they want to seem cool around them, 2. Friends obviously, 3. It’s fun to them. Ah… They don’t understand. Stupid kids. Kind of. (>_<)

I just got done eating a Chicken Pot Pie and two pieces of Cinnamon Sugar toast, and a Peanut butter sandwich. I just finished a glass of milk. Yummy!

Well I got to go, time to hang with Kasi!! I’m happy!

Evening Walk

Today I went for a walk to see if I can see my friend walking their dog around town. So, I was walking around and I passed through a cul-de-sac and I saw children and pre-teens playing with family, I couldn’t help but smile. It thought it looked like so much fun! I wish my family was like that, but it’s alright, if my family did that, It would be very strange.

I am a bit inspired so here is a really small poem. (^_^)

There was a cool, sharp breeze that made my teeth click.
The weather was a bit uneasy but the view was amazing.
Green leafy trees reaching up towards the violet colored skies while the sun sets behind me.
Shadowed birds fly from the trees towards the other side of the road to find their resting place.
The moon rises from the ground to spread its’ wings of darkness over the land, it’s time for the night to engulf my world.